Weaning off Effexor - 100mg to 75mg

We are up to step 2 and taking off another 25mg.
I'm feeling pretty hopeful that this will go well, given how easily the first step was.

7/2/17 - Went down to 75mg tonight.
Ugh, my heart is feeling a bit 'cold' (how my brain interprets it, not a physical temperature drop) and my eyes feel like I may cry.

8/2/17 - I am experiencing Weltschmerz and am having suicidal thoughts (not actively planning, just those thoughts that aren't really yours that pop up in your mind).

9/2/17 - I now only have general disenchantment (and suicidal thoughts), how lovely.
But really I'll take any improvement.

At 1 am I decided I really felt like a drink (and unusual craving for me).
Note: I physically CANNOT drink when I am depressed. I loose the taste for it completely.

It is now 1:40am and I am all about this:

I need his cape.

The main dancer is throwing shapes like there is no tomorrow.
I live for the flamboyance!!!
(If you need proof of my own flamboyance, see the 'Peacock tail' post, I'll wait.)
A huge shout out to PB for showing me this glorious clip!

Also, just a shout out to PB because he makes me so happy just by existing. <3

10/2/17 - And we are back to ennui.

11/2/17 - Someone in my life seems to be melting down, but I honestly can't engage right now, I am too fragile.
Sorry bro, shields are up, especially since you're getting a little mean.

Watching the Game Grumps play-through Pokemon Fire Red and the Lavender Town music is so sad.

12/2/17 -  I'm really bothered by things sticking up/out. I have an irrational fear they will poke me in the eye (Aichmophobia).
I have always had this phobia, but it is usually dormant. 
It is really strong today.
I don't even like my hands being too close to my face!

13/2/17 - Today was a good day, made even better by PB sending me flowers! <3 
I love that man so much!

14/2/17 - I don't know if it is because of the medicine, but I have at least 6 pimples on my face. (Which doesn't phase me too much).
Emotionally I was very happy today, but it was Valentine's day!
I pointed out my pimples to R, he suggested I was going through puberty! XD Hahaha! 

19/2/17 - Someone who I know who is also on effexor complained about the memory formation problems they had as a side effect.
Do I have that too?!
I do keep forgetting things, important things, I just don't encode it. 
And I used to be quite good at encoding information!
I used to remember little things so easily.

I just thought my memory was a jerk or I was just getting older!


21/2/17 - Ok, I have been out and drinking (not getting drunk, but my body still isn't happy) for the past 3 nights... I feel like I'm dying! XD
It's just a hangover though!
I was perfectly happy being out, especially since I had such lovely company!

Tonight we (I) go down to 50mg!